#51: Blog everyday for a month

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Today I begin this task, I decided to leave until the first of a month because it would just make things so much simpler for me.  Besides I always enjoy the very start of a month for that whole 'fresh new start' feeling it begins, and I am in much need of a fresh new start.

I will be scheduling posts in advance for some days that I know I will be busy on and because February is an emotional month for me, so that hopefully I will be able to cross this one off my list at the end of February.  So here's to new beginnings and daily posts...

It's a dirty word

I joined up to Slimming World yesterday, apparently we're not supposed to call it a 'diet' but if it wasn't a diet I would be allowed to sit down with a coffee and handful of biscuits to write this post so I don't care, I shall still call it a diet.

I am feeling rebellious already, this does not bode well surely?  I was going to write about how I hate dieting, depriving myself of that moment when I pop something truly delicious into my mouth, knowing that it's bad for me but just loving it anyway (right now I am craving toasted crumpets with oodles of butter all over them).

However then I thought about it.  I need to do this mainly for my children, I do believe that bad eating habits can be inherited and I don't want my boys to have bellies or moobs that wobble when they run.  This is difficult though as DS1 is a fussy eater, and DS2 is going through the refusal stage.  Have my own fussy eating habits bought this on?  It's a definite possibility and not one I really want to look too closely at.

Of course there are other reasons for my decision to finally stop arguing against dieting to 'fit in' better with people who look at me with disgust or pity in their eyes, making me want to bash them firmly over the head with my multi-pack bag of crisps.  I shall try to share them all here in time.  I plan on posting about them when I feel my willpower caving into the lust for a bit of a cake.

Being fat (yes I said 'fat' not overweight) is difficult.  I struggle to find clothes that I am happy with, that actually fit in a flattering way.  Many people can say that, but I don't think the average woman can grasp what it is like for someone who is many dress sizes bigger than her.  I didn't get it myself when I was younger and much slimmer (UK dress size 8/10) and would go shopping with my mum who would weep in changing rooms.  I thought I had a big backside in those days, and my hips were too wide... What minor complaints those were!

So despite the fact that I have a few delicious fruit flavoured boiled sweets sat right next to me, I am not giving in and I am going to give this diet my all.  Even if the patronising, lame crap the leaders spout makes me roll my eyes heavenward.

*insert welcome post here*

Well, I always find introductory posts awkward, so this most likely won't be of much interest to anyone apart from me, but that's good because this blog is for me first and foremost.

I've started this blog up to aid me in my 101 in 1001 days challenge, it'll be a miracle if I complete it but right now I am all full of good intentions.  Don't be too disappointed in me if I don't, it's my nature to drift away from obsessions, plans, hobbies etc, having ADHD.

I'm 27 years old, I live in England, have two sons, and a SO who are saints to put up with me a lot of the time.  I love my family, have some family dramaz on occasion, and have some wonderful friends.  I read, a lot, I spend too much time procrastinating instead of cleaning, I tend to bury my head instead of sorting things out.  There's loads more, but I forget.

I'm still working on my list, coming up with 101 things, even checking out other people's lists is not so easy.  Not all of my list will seem very challenging to you, but for various reasons they are challenging to me, I've chosen some fun challenges as well as some more difficult ones though as I don't want to get tired of the list too soon.

This blog is the first thing I can tick off the list.  Go me!